Alignment matters

I am not who I was

I am thankful for that!!

You should be too!

I still remember the day...
my mentor looked me square in the eye 

and said these words to me...

"You are out of line" and then began to explain why

I had a choice to make in that moment. 

I could defend myself. 

I could make excuses. 

I could cry and play a victim. 

I could blame someone else. 

I could justify my actions. 

Instead....

 I did something that became a defining moment 

that literally changed my life.

I humbled myself.

I listened with the intention to understand

I admitted my sins.

I repented with absolute transparency

I asked for help

I changed!!

I am thankful for those words, for the truth spoken. 

I am thankful for the hours of one on one counsel
and the fatherly encouragement. 

I am thankful for the correction;
for redirection.
I am thankful I was wise
and listened
and gained understanding.

I cherish every moment. 

I know I was favored. 

I understand I was set apart. 

I know was blessed to have this mentor.

it wasn't easy, but it was worth it

That season of my life

 kept me off the broken road... 

The broken road is extremely dangerous

its full of twists and turns

deception, temptation and dishonesty

the lines are blurred by

lust, greed and intimidation.

Anyone can find themselves there

its only a short distance 

called decision

Anyone can find themselves there

...even my mentor.

Wait, What??

I grieved with confusion

wondering...

 how is this possible?

How can it be

 the one who taught me 

with such conviction and truth

couldn't avoid the road of complacency?

I was heartbroken and confused

wanting to be loyal

wanting to believe

I began as we must 

with unwavering grace,
mercy, forgiveness and trust.

I moved forward
believing the best...

I fought for justice and peace

I sought wisdom & revelation

and in my seeking I gained for understanding.
the truth was so blinding 

it stripped away the final veil

Now I only pray

for these things...

humility, honesty and transparency 

ears to hear the truth 

a heart of repentance

a desire to uncover the deception

an obedient heart

a willingness to trust 

I pray one day
for full restoration

that will come with rest

its the only way now

Words spoken, but not lived
hypocrisy haunts
take heed is my response

We are all only one or two decisions away from destruction

If we take a step away from the cross,
we will find ourselves in the crowd

its not about me,
never been about me,
never going to be about me

obedience before sacrifice

#humilitywouldhavebeeneasier #practicewhatyoupreach