I AM
SAVED by GRACE
My God is a jealous God. His relentless pursuit of me and YOU is astounding. His wish is that not one of us perish. That we would all reign in Heaven with Him. That we would all come home...I am thankful for His boundless love.
His grace, too, is boundless. There is nothing that grace won't cover for those who are humble and repent. What Jesus did for me on that cross in beyond comprehension...its unfathomable.
Reemember freedom comes by the Blood of the Lamb AND by the Word of our Testimony. Even though I believed this and knew I had recieved his full forgiveness, which brought me salvation...
I still held onto some of my sin.
I didn't commit these sins any longer, but I kept them a secret, from everyone. Its private right? Between me and God, right?
Wrong.
I was pretending to be whole, while I was only sharing the best parts of my journey, picking and choosing the highlights to share, keeping the dirty secrets hidden...because, honestly, I wanted others to approve.
But then...His pursuit of me became intense...
Suttle things began to take place that threatened my secrets being revelead and then I stumbled upon Matthew 10:33
I say stumbled, because I avoided the corrective verses in the BIble..those were for someone else...I was already saved. (Yes, I used to think this way)
Revelation!
It was then I realized what I had done. I had denied what He had done for me...
I had been a christian for nearly17 years and the entire time I was keeping my sin a secret and denying the full testimony of Jesus...
When I realized what I had done, my heart shattered.
Repentance came like a flood and His grace covered me. I spent more and more time seeking the Lord. Praying and listening...for weeks...until I knew who who He was and trusted Him to walk beside me as I revealed my secrets.
His grace was sufficient.
My masks have been removed!
I want to share with you something I wrote during this time of being revealed at a womens summit. I was asked to give my testimony and given only 1 minute to share...I thought to myself...are they kidding? I politely asked for more time and their response - they gave me 3 minutes.
I thought to myself, there is no way I can bring what the Lord is calling me to reveal in 3 minutes...But being obedient, I went to prayer and as He always does, the Holy Spirit led me to create a unique way to tell part of my story, this is my first testimony, while bold...it was still safe.
Have you ever heard of a spoken word?
In a basic sense, SPOKEN WORD is a rhythmic poetry. It is performed enthusiastically (be it vibrant or emotional), rather than just read plainly. Like other art forms, it is a form of self-expression, and can be used as therapy for the artist and the listener.
Here is my first Spoken Word:
I’m hear
to tell you my story…
But it’s not
to raise me up
Its to bring
Him glory
So listen up friends
I gotta make
it fast
cause I’ve
only got a minute
to talk
about my past
Let me give
fair warning…
its gonna be
a ride
This aint no
fairy tale.
No longer
will I hide
Let me start
where it ended,
the place that I died.
I stood up before a crowd
and declared with a shout
and declared with a shout
The inheritance is mine
I am taking my rightful place
As the bride right here, right now
I served
notice to the enemy
unveiled the mask that hid me
I found
courage to take a stand.
And when I did…
The
Lord took my hand
I understand full well
This is an
assignment
He’s perfected
To Speak Life & Live
To those who
have been rejected
To heal the broken hearted
The ones behind the veil
where guilt shame and condemnation
have been their prison cell
I know who they are
I understand their pain
I've walked their walk
The world I knew as a girl
Was darkness and despair
Unspeakable abuse, lies, torment
No...life wasn't fair
See I walked this earth stuck
behind a mask of imperfection
on the outside I pretended
to be the perfect born again Christian
but inside I was still broken,
my life played out like a cheap charade
deep dark secrets left unspoken
Then one day God crashed in
revealing my true identity
to be the perfect born again Christian
but inside I was still broken,
my life played out like a cheap charade
deep dark secrets left unspoken
Then one day God crashed in
revealing my true identity
It came as a voice from the grave
and brought a revelation
with just four little words
about my creation
snapped me into reality
with a clear revelation.
--
You Were Never Wanted
--
These words were spoken
Into my wounded heart & soul
That was already broken
It was her last confession
- My first reaction –
was to tighten the mask…
the one I'd always worn
so no one would ask
All the lies and deception
before my conception
I finally had the answer
To all the rejection
The journey from that day
to this place that I stand
is now I know
--
Who I am.
--
I know the truth of my existence
I know why I was born
No longer do I have an identity crisis
Love came in, and rescued me
Took away the pain
To reveal my true identity
Though I was despised for living
I am loved in the heavenly
HIs Word came alive in Jeremiah one five
He knew me -before- He formed me
He called me by name
He chose me, raised me,
and now here I stand
For such a time as this...
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